Sunday, January 13, 2008/ -8:44 PM
Silly..
I sorry i disappointed u so much..
Thank you for giving me a second chance..
After these past few entries in ur bookand in this blog.. i understand what u really need le.. what kind of boyfriend i need to be.. for you..
I need to be strong, sprtitually, emotionally and able to be the leader of or relationship, our 7 years later family...
I need to assure u that i am a man who is capable for u to depend on.. not only keep showing u how much i love u only.. maybe we've just reached level 3 of our relationship le.. level 2 was how much we treasure each other.. level 1 is companionship..
level 3.. trusts, dependance, protection, perserverance...
real test of our love , our truth.. our relationship to God and to each other...
The truth stands the test of time... is our relationship true?
I also understand why when i fall u were so disappointed.. because when i fall, u were thinking how are u going to trust me, to depend on me in the future? how am i going be the man who is going to lead the Spritual Lifestyle in our relationship and later, family?
Thats the question u were crying all about..
and if no answers comes out, if i didnt clear it.. u thought of leaving me... i understand all le.. i understand why le..
I need to grow up.. spritually alot, and psychologically and mentally le..
I need to gain ur trust back.. ur dependance on me.. I understand now..
the verse that came into my mind..
1 cor 13 : 11
When i was a child, i talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. when i became a man, i put my childish ways behind me.
no wonder this verse comes in the paragraph of love..
because in order to have a lovely realationship, the man first must be matured..
Joo Leng.. I treasure our rleationship alot.. alot..
and i prayed daily to God not to take u away from me..
Gimme time.. I'll Grow.. I just found God back.. I just need time to learn from Him..
He is using me in chruch le.. I know im changing into another man.. just like how i prayed.. Just gimme some time and alot of trust k?
and i'll forever keep in mind what 1 cor 13 is about..
how i will seriously this time treat u as my precious girlfren God gave me..
please trust me and depend on me again..
ps.. How could u hug another Guy!!!!